"Doctors spend a lot of time focused on the future..
Planning it.
Working toward it.

But at some point you start to realize, your life is happening now.

I love you?
I don't ever want to live without you?
You changed my life.

Did you say it?

Set a goal, work toward it.

But every now and then, look around..
Drink it in because this is it..

It might all be gone tomorrow.."

This particular week had pushed me to my limits.

I blurted out "..whatever.." to my boss, with no hesitation, full of frustration. We didn't talk to each other for a day or two. I got no problem with the silent treatment, I felt calmer and I can do my job in peace.

Then he texted, apologizing; everyone is under pressure now and this will be on until Malaysian Open next year. So?

A few days later, the things that I've worked on like crazy just went down the drain because he said, NO. Ok, I accepted it. Later, 15 minutes before my working hours ended, he texted; requesting me to do the thing that he rejected earlier and it was for the next day event. I put down my phone and walked to another room and sat at a corner, between the file cabinet and a few boxes. I cried, out of frustration and annoyed. It was like doing something stupid. I've canceled everything with the organizers earlier because he rejected and now I had to arrange it back?! Others would see me like I'm so unorganized or something, which I really hate, because I know I'm not. I can't be dropping everything just to clear his crap. I was pissed off but I managed to arrange everything on time. But the feeling of, you know, sangat kelam kabut..I just don't like that.

We didn't talk for a day or two.

People say this is some sort of a love-hate relationship. It is not, at all. It's totally a soul-torturing bond, which in the end of the day, I'm the one would go crazy.

Now, Mabis is officially the Monday-Therapy-venue for me and my bunch, dissing all about work because that's what all of us going through at the moment.

Is this normal? Because I can't go on like this until my retirement age, 55..that's a very long way to go. Huhuh..

Enough about that crap. I've got that expressed during the Monday-Mabis. So, what's new?

I got myself a Joe and a Takezo. Well, Joe is my ikan puyu (the protector la konon) and Takezo is the ikan laga.

I have two cats since I was 8 years old and those cats are pretty much alive in Kota Bharu. Panjang umur huh? But they're barely can hear you when you call out their names, no teeth and yeah, they're super old. But I love them. Too bad they're back in KB, hanging out with my parents and I only get to see them when I'm back. So, it has been a while since I got another pet.

I'm looking for something that I can belai, manja, easy to take care of and doesn't shit smelly shits..hahaha!!

Qaf suggested for a sugar-glider..tapi boleh nak manja2 ke?
Nadz suggested for an iguana..kau gila?!
Natta suggested for a pair of hamster..err, kecik?
I was thinking, how about a wolf?? Haram la plak..
Then Nadz suggested, bela Fozz la, si Panda..makan minum dah pandai cari sendiri, toilet-trained plak tuh..

Any other suggestion?

I saw a black kitten somewhere in Taman Tun, for sale and she's so adorable. Exactly the age when Nanayau got Majin Buu and looks exactly like Majin Buu (except that she's totally black..) and she's RM 450. Mak datuk..

Fozz, aku bela kau boleh? Hahah..

Syukur Today is Khamis.

Know any vacancies available?

I want to apply..PRONTO!

I'm getting annoyed and frustrated..

Cycling with Natt, Qaf and Nadiah at Bukit Cerakah on Saturday morning.